Fellowship

Today is friday.

TGIF

Then, here comes saturday, sunday, then monday....

Sigh, endless routine.... Fellowship today was fun, I learned new things. Good thing I went ^^

*nite nite, sweet dream* 11.57pm already

Bible Study

To go or not to go???

But, I went in the end and I didnt regretted it.

I had fun. =D

*signing off, good day*

9gag is really addictive ^^v

Finally!!!

Finally I went to Damai!

It's been a long time since I last went there....

Oh, how to breeze and sand feels....

Took a lot of photo, maybe will upload when i'm free ^^

It's March 2012

Time sure fly by so fast...

1. I got myself a new phone ^^v

2. I feel I'm running out of time

3. I dislike my crooked finger =(

4. I cannot undo things

5. I must cope up with my life

...

*sigh* hope things get better for tomorrow

What I have learned so far... =D

A note to myself:

1. Paparazzi

2. I am the Best

3. Roly Poly

4. Bad girl, Good girl

5. Dr Feel Good

6. Mr. Taxi

7. To me

8. Step

=D I'm gonna learn more in future! ^^v

Must be stonger one day....

This is to dedicate to myself:
You know the bed feels warmer
Sleeping here alone
You know I dream in color
And do the things I want

You think you've got the best of me
Think you've had enough the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone
Think you left me broken down
Think that I'd come running back
Baby, you don't know me, 'cause you're dead wrong

Chorus:
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes you fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone

Bridge:
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/k/kelly_clarkson/stronger.html ]
You heard that I was starting over with someone new
They told you I was moving on, over you
You didn't think that I'd come back
I'd come back swinging
You tried to break me, but you see

Chorus:
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes you fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone

Bridge:
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken-hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking 'bout me
You know in the end the day you left is just my beginning
In the end

[Repeat chorus]
[Repeat bridge x2]

I'm not alone

Forgotten to say Thank You!

Haiz...

I forgotten to say "Thank you"

It's such a simple word but how can I forget about it? I feel miserable but in future, I will always remember to say thank you or buy you a drink!

"Thank for buying me a drink! I appreciate it a lot!" - sorry, hope u know..

Why I so blur today? ='(

nite!

Here I Am...

Here I am...
Once again, I'm torn into pieces...

Let me think? Who song liao?
OH! Kelly Clarkson!

Now I remember, I love this song!!!

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

"Behind These Hazel Eyes" - Kelly Clarkson

Haiz.. Why i feel so gloomy today? I must have been sick for so long...I had food poisoning since monday. It was horrible T___T Why bad luck happen to me? Can some good things happen to me too?

Then again, I wanna pray.. I wanna pray for lots of people... Before I tell my sick and horrible story. I wanna pray.

I put in point form la... *pray*

-hope my friend A safe and sound study very very far away T.T
-hope my friend B able to concentrate on her study and have a crystal clear mind from all things
-hope my friend C no matter what please dont hurt me just because when you need me, u find me. When u dont need me, i am not needed. *it's upsetting, sorry for being sensitive*
-hope my friend D get less unfairness in this world altho i dunno what happen

Alright. That's it been thinking in my mind whole day. Not really to say whole just that, half the time, simple think when being sick..

Back to my story. I'm sick lor... Worst sick in the year lor. I think this year, I visited hospital twice lor.

First time didnt kena bottle drip, second time happen to me lor. What luck har? =="

Haiz....

I better rest early la. I'm still sick =( please please please, let me be alright tomorrow so that i can do things. Haiz...

Most important still is good health...

Nite lar~

=.="

For today, I would like to talk about the good then the bad...

Good news is...

Babi pansuh quite successful!!! =D *applause to my mom*

We cook it without bambo. Amazing, isnt it? =D *hehe*


Next, the bad news is....

I got a feeling I will @&#^@&)$^&^#)@ around here...

Haiz... Speaking of the post itself...

#foreveralone #foreveralone #foreveralone << What la?

Haiz, annoyed! ==" Really annoyed. I'm alone and you have your better half. Then le? Still wan to say forever alone? ==" I think I will never able to end my debate. Oh!!! Never mind. Move on to next topic....

I am sick even though I'm blogging here...

I blog for life... I took 2 noseblock tablets, 1 flu tablet, 2 panadols for fever... It seems effective but I am a little sleepy now. Haiz.. Ok la, cut short what I wanted to say above about the #foreveralone. Best to let it be la. Haiz. Annoyed also no use.


This is my leftover medicine which I have from the last time I was sick... Good thing it is still useful...


Not to mention, I also have gastric medicine. I have gastric long time already la!!! FYP that time I already gastric. But, I'm alright. It's good to keep some from time to time.

Some people eat so important that they rather eat first than finish the project. That kind of useless person, karma will get back to them. Not to mention telling lies. Lie some more. God knows. haiz...

Like my fellowship Aunty, she used to curse people. Not intentionally. It is always like that the case, right? Usually we feel bad heart for a moment because people treated us badly just too much. They over do it without even considering our feelings. Even they break out hearts, make us suffered, doing the project day and night. Lastly, didnt even play an important role in a group. WTH la. I really been constantly reminded on this. I will never forget it. Some more with the harsh treatment. Constant lies, telling lies over and over again. As if I am blind. =.=" Well, I'm not blind. God is not blind either. Why do you have to lie?

Anyways, back to the story.. the person aunty dislike didnt really get a good ending. Aunty been tolerating but yea, then the person get karma in the end. Saying the situation didnt occur also, it will occur. Better to do good than evil la. Dont repay evil with evil.

I didnt do anything. I lost some more. Some people didnt pay my medicine fees. Broken promise ==" Karma remembers that! Haiz. I did my FYP, pour everything into it. But, I did get good result from it. I'm grateful. No matter what, I will give my all. Haiz. I want to tell Uncle, altho I went through hard time, it wasnt easy at all.

#foreveralone huh? Tell me... You tell me about it la.

Haiz..

Nite *i'm sick*

Movie Day!

I'm so excited today. I been looking at the time waiting for 7pm.

1. Go fetch Alice and her brother.
2. Book movie.
3. Enjoy watching Real Steel at 8pm!

Conclusion: Good movie ^^

I didnt think that I will watch another movie after Rebecca go back to Notthingham. T.T

Oh yea, before that, I pay dentist a visit. T___T I had my tooth filling and scaling and polishing. One and the half hour. Quite a painful process. =( Deep down in my heart, I prayed to God that I will go through it fast. Another thing is, because I have never done scaling before. So, it hurts... =(


But!! The dentist, she's really good. I must give her the credit. She's really gentle and nice. I love her. I never seen such a good dentist before. Other places I went, even more PAINFUL! ==" I think they dont give a damn to me. *sad*

Back to movie. I found movie tickets....

This is the movie ticket which I watched with Rebecca.

Johnny English 2 Reborn!


Really awesome movie. So funny that I laughing from beginning till the end. I wouldn't mind to watch it again. hahaha....


I found all these movies ticket in my purse. I didnt know I kept so many of them. Time to throw. But best to take photo of them before thrown. LOL!

I think I watched plenty of movie this year. Let me list them down ^^

- Kung Fu Panda 2

- X-men: First Class

- Pirates of the Carribbean 4

- Transformers 3

- Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2

- Cars 2

- Johnny English 2 Reborn

- Real Steel

OMG! 8 Movies in a year!! I never watch so many movies in a year. *applause applause* Got improvement. Last time, I didnt even have chance to watch movie at cinema. But, now is FREEDOM! haha, omg!!! 8 movies. I must watch even more movies in future! =D

Real Steel! I love this movie.


I love this action movie. I just love happy ending. It is really made my day. I enjoy watching it from beginning till the end. Usually, some movie, some part really boring. But, this excited me till the end of the movie. Really awesome! I dont mind to watch another good movie if I'm given a chance. Maybe Puss in Boots Movie? After all, he finally have his own movie on his own. LOL!

Satisfied for the day!

Good night! =D

Friends Gathering...

Hmmp, i found this picture in my car and realize that the last time I went jogging was 7 October 2011. So long ago... I wonder when is the next time I'm going there to jog?

Hmmmp... *wonders*


Today, gathering at Dessert Paradise at 8pm. I reach there late because my niece won't let me leave house earlier like usual. *haha*

It's really been long time since I last meet my coursemate. I do have a feeling of missing them but then it's a bit sad that I'm still gooofying around ==" kinda awkward...

My brother said when people stay at a position too long. They feel too comfortable to leave that place. I probably understand it now. Haiz.

I went home late ==" 12 something then I reach home. No complains, no worries because I am done with school. But I still dont like the idea driving home late by myself. But if in future, I dont have a choice also. Early training!

Btw, I love SAGO ICE! I must learn how to make this. T.T I forgotten to took picture. I think i had that for 4 times already. ==" Addicted. =X *yummy ma*

It's 2am now. Time to sleep....

Nite!

It's Saturday!

Usually today I will have Bible study. However, aunty who have always taken care of me, I'm really really grateful to have her, her mother in law passed away. *sad* =(

I was really upset after receiving her message this morning. She said she was tired and couldn't conduct the bible study. I was really looking forward towards bible study. It was really fun to have bible study with her. I learned a lot.

Aunty said, when people passed away. It's only a good-bye because we will be meeting them again. They will together with God. Haiz... I keep deleting sentences because I dunno what to say next.

Anyways, I wanna pray that hope aunty and uncle to be in best health although so much have happen in their life. They must have been very busy. They are really good people and please dear God, bless them with abundance of blessing. Please be with them through thick or thin especially during this crucial them when they have just lost someone important. May their heart be heal. Amen.

I dont really able to say a good prayer for others but I will try. It's best to have more people praying for each other than being lonely island. No man is an island.

Anyways...

Today, nothing much. Been babysitting. Hmm, if I weren't babysitting probably I am off to have seen the rafflesia. LOL!

Haiz... Why I dont have luck to climb mountain or go hot spring for a visit? or going to waterfall? The most saddest thing is that this year, I dont even have chance to see damai beach. Haiz, why such poor luck... =(

I really really really really really want to go visit the beach. Haiz, feel the sand, feel the wind. Go with a bunch of friends. Have fun.

T__T Why so sad?

Haiz... Anyway, I found my niece the penguin toy. ==" LOL! I played this before. I had it before but spoil liao because too old. I still keep it tho. But then because she wan to play. Bought her the new toy. She so fascinated by the penguin going up the stairs. So cute >.< hahaha... Something to keep her occupied la...

Ok la, 12.30Am lor... sleeping time..

Nite!

Fellowship Day! =D

Yay! Today is Friday! These days, I really look forwards towards Thursday, Friday and Saturday. It is probably the most happening time in my week.

Today, Aunty and Uncle choose my favourite song, "As the deer". Awwww, I miss this song so much since after high school. I still sing from time to time when I was really down. =( *cry to my bitter heart ohhh bitter heart*

I'm gonna paste the lyrics here ^^v

As the deer panteth for the water

So my soul longeth after thee

You alone are my hearts desire

And I long to worship thee

You alone are my strength my shield

To You alone may my spirit yield

You alone are my hearts desire

And I long to worship thee

As the deer panteth for the water

So my soul longeth after thee

You alone are my hearts desire

And I long to worship thee

You alone are my strength my shield

To You alone may my spirit yield

You alone are my hearts desire

And I long to worship thee

You’re my friend and You are my brother,

Even though you are a king.

I love you more than any other,

So much more than anything.

You alone are my strength my shield

To You alone may my spirit yield

You alone are my hearts desire

And I long to worship thee

I felt happy singing "As the deer" in the fellowship. I dunno if my singing is good but whatever la. Usually I'm very quiet but today, I'm super hype on my own. =X

Today lesson is about forgiving. I still find this forgiving hard. How to forgive? ==! *blank stare*

Ah! Another thing I learn from aunty is ERASE! Woah! This is the highlight of my day! Erase. Why didnt I think of that? This is gonna be a good word for me. I'm gonna erase off and keep only meaningful ones. ^^v

Like usual, today is the only day which I will go home before 12 midnight. It's soooo much fun to spend time with aunty and uncle at the fellowship. I never feel so comfortable before in any uncle and aunty house that they are sooo welcoming. I feel so touched. I wonder if one day my parent will be able to understand me that I LOVE LOVE LOVE ABSOLUTELY LOVE to go and have fellowship. Uncle and aunty are the reason that I love to join them! We have so much to talk about. It's fun! I feel I'm alive in this world. They do care for me. T___T I'm so grateful. >.<

Oh ya! Another highlight of the day, my car, FINALLY have ALARM!!! yay!!!

v^______________^v

I'm so happy to hear my car able to auto-lock. I have been worried and worried to always check that my car is fully secure and everything. Then, I leave my car. Now, once I stepped on my break, my car will be auto-lock! I LOVE LOVE LOVE THE NEW CAR ALARM LOCK! Thank you, daddy! =D

<3 daddy as always for thinking of me when I'm driving around. T___T In future, I will work hard to repay daddy.

Tada!!! My mickey mouse key-chain and my new car remote. T___T I'm so happy.

Why small things make me so happy some times? Probably, I'm just grateful.

Nite nite!

Tiring Day...

Today I woke up early ==" 7am already wake up. The night before slept at 2am T___T

Funny how it seems that during my semester I can sleep for 3/4 hours. During these days, I sleep till 8 or 10 hours. Probably is pay back time >< But in future, I may need to sacrifice some more =( *sad* I must train myself to sleep less.

Woke up, then got lots of things to do. Like usual. Go to a "far far place" >< then come back. Then, went to hospital. Then, SHOPPING! =D

Funny now how I look at the picture that I'm sitting at the end of the car with lot and lots of stuff! @@! Probably this is the cons of having a 7 seater car. Someone who sit behind will be cramp with shopping bags. T___T *me*

My niece got herself a bicycle. So cute of her. *hehe* Now, she will be finding ppl to push her from behind since she cant cycle it yet. =X *happy babysitting*

My brother bought the bicycle from Giant. Good deal! Cheaper than other shop. I think it was less than RM50. If other place wont be able to get this price. =X *promotion price ma*

I think basically that's it la for today. Tired, dozing off soon.

nite!

Insomnia

*uhuk uhuk* T.T Last night unable to sleep. DARN!! I ended up watching Coffee Prince from 2am till 4am.

Woke up late the next day, haiz..


This drama so awesome!!! At least it did the trick to put me to sleep =D Watch till i feel tired, my eyes cannot open already and sleep peacefully!

Okay, new GOAL!

Tonight I must sleep early!

Nite!

It's been a while....

It's been a long time since I last wrote my last post blog. Many things have happen. Even up till now, many things have happen and I cannot accept some things are broken? I think I have gone through worst time of my life?

HA HA!

Haiz, everything can be broken but please not my bone. =( Haiz. My fingers been perfect all along. None stop of practising countless scales when I was young. I run countless times playing perfect and perfect and even more perfect with my piano pieces. Now, I'm a broken record player? Haiz. Why does this damages happen in my life? I couldn't find myself to go back playing piano or guitar. Even carrying a cooking pot with my left hand today also my left hand have no strength.

Fear not~! Karma will do justice, God is around us. Justice will be the one to decide what happen one day! I believe in karma. What goes around, comes around!

Now, happy stuff!

I have finally graduated ^^v *clap hands* It have been long and windy journey that I have gone through! 4 years!!! It wasnt easy at all!!! hahahahaha.. I'm still amaze at myself >< I didnt think I would have make it at the end of the day. *hehehe* I'm glad I have made on time! I am almost an inch closer to on time graduation actually. BUT!!! I guess is alright to be next year ^^ I guess, as long as I am graduated from THAT school! I'm happy... Wheee~~~~

Hmmp, highlight of my life recently?

A lot actually ^^

I will make myself start to picture blog again! =D *harpie*

Tada~ First picture after a long time....

*hehe* First time I went to jogging area near stutong. Rm0.50 per entry. It was fun to jog around. I went jogging with Alice. I feel I'm losing my stamina but then I am still able to catch up with the pace. *1...2....1...2.....1...2....* hahaha...

I think so far only went there 2 times. I could probably bring my dad along to try on the stones.. The stones really painful to walk on when I tried them T_____T *ouch ouch ouch* Must have been something wrong with my body. Of coz there is la!!! Will blog about this later. It is important to take good care of your health!

Besides, I need to train myself to sleep early. It's 1.24am now.

Nite nite! =D

Must make a turn over resolution

Every day,

I'm gonna get up and live,

I'm going to breath,

laugh, and even smile.

and maybe one day,

i'll have reason to.

Good day~

人为什么要活着？

lol! First time i put chinese character as my title.... What does it mean?

人为什么要活着？ What do ppl live for?

I found this in facebook. This is rather interesting...

Based on a true story

What do people live for ?
For missing someone ?
For keep living?
For live longer?
Or for leaving ?

"Let's ride motorcycles!"

These 5 Taiwanese
Average aged 81
One has hearing problem
One has cancer
Three have heart disease
Everyone has degenerative arthritis

6 months of preparation
13 days travelling around Taiwan
1139 kilometers
From north to south
From night to day
For one simple reason

What do people live for?

Dream
For ordinary people with extraordinary dreams

Motivation of the day. What do i live for? I live for dream! =D

Annie, jia you!

Good afternoon~ *I didnt blog this at night*

Sigh

This should be the last time i must ever write a sad post, i will try...

I have lost someone to talk to...Everyone have their emotional times... So do i...I have been looking very hard for the right one to talk to....I understand nobody likes to hear ppl talking about their stuff and i can clearly see that...It's okay...I once have a friend, I once lost a friend, I once met a new friend...Blogging this would be childish, read my blog would have think "What could possibly gone wrong?"I am just having this sad moment... My mom always say i'm the type who will be devoted to friend and I cant believe that she's right again knowing my weakness... I have been regretting but when there are sad and happy times, what are friends for? I felt i have lost friend to talk again. I wonder how many times have this happen to me... I think i lost count... WHY!? I think the saddest thing could ever happen to anyone is losing someone to talk to... I understand that why does this matter at all? I used to be strong. I used be able to handle things better, but i guess i gotten weaker. This is really a deviated blow. It didnt happen for once but many times and again and again i believe everything is just a misunderstanding. Maybe certain friends cant be friends after all... What's the different between me and others? I cant tell jokes? I'm not funny? I am no longer interesting? *sigh* Maybe i far too honest. Maybe my honesty is my stupidity. Maybe i help friend till they make used out of me. I hate thinking of this every single time. For the sake of helping friend or for a friend, i am willing to go through so much. Numerous times i did good things for my friends but i guess probably it wasnt good enough for them. I see them come, i see them go. Where is the old me that I'm used to be strong? I need you back.... and again, I assure I wont be used by others anymore.

Nite~

Sick

Aduh, right after come back from KL trip, all my family member fall sick. I guess well all not use to it there...

BUT!

I gotta say, i love KL! I dunno why, i go there, i feel relax for the first time! @@! I mean, i kinda able to let whatever happen in Kuching go~ I am able to let go there... in KL! weird huh!

Anyways, i'm down with dry cough.. so irritating. I cough till i can feel my chest pain =( I'm wondering if having fever or not. Sometimes, i just can differentiate them... =="

Anyways, i guess i'm sleeping early tonight...

Nite nite~